Before You Binge

WANT TO BINGE?
Stop. Read this first. It's the least you can do.


Why do you want to binge? What's the real reason? Are you sad? Alone? Have a bad day? Do you think food will make it all better, perhaps soothe you? Let me tell you something, a secret: It won't. You know what it will do? It'll make you hate yourself. Every problem you have, will seem ten times worse because you are fat. You are a failure if you give in. What ever happened to being strong? The taste in your mouth, the pleasure it may bring, will be nothing to the pain that will course in every other ounce of your body.
Remember the last time you binged? Remember the fat, disgusting flesh that was you? The failure? The shame? The tears? Do you want that? Is it really worth it? Do you really want to be weak, throw away all you've done for one moment of pleasure? You don't deserve to. You deserve to starve, to slowly die, you deserve to feel the hunger, you love it. You love it.
Before you consider it a moment longer: you must do the following. Must. Read your page on why you want to be skinny. What it'll be like. Now copy them all down. Each one. Add your own. Still want to be fat? Fine. Write down what it was like when you were more fat. Write down how far you've come. Still want to go back? Count to 100, taking sips of water in between each number. Drink one cup of green tea. If you're still unconvinced, then you've forced this upon yourself: Rub one fingerful of toothpaste on your tongue, and don't wash it off. Stare at your unclothed body, take in all the disgusting impurity that is you. Look at thinspiration. Remember the punishments for eating... If you still want to binge: repeat this cycle. Exercise.
You Don't Want To Binge
You can, if you wanted to. But you don't. You aren't like the others, you aren't going to give in and be fat. You choose not to eat because you are strong, and you will be skinny. You will have control. You are in charge of what you eat. No one can force you to eat, don't use that as an excuse. You are in charge. No one will ever take control away from you again, never. ever. again.