When All You Knew Was Gone

I'm just a girl, but perhaps not to you. To you, I'm just a blog, a website, a tiny link in your world. Maybe, though, the same monsters inhabit our souls, and bind us unknowingly. If you know Ana, the kiss of a blade, if you dream of death and wish for beauty... then maybe we aren't strangers after all. Maybe we're the same soul, split in a million parts and trapped in a thousand different bodies. Maybe we're all alone together.
H: 5'3 HW: 125 CW: 114 LW: 110 GW1: 110 GW2: 105 UGW: 99

Vegan, Anorexic, Self Harm, Pansexual, Suicidal, Depressed

Friday, January 27, 2012

DAY2, 3, and a fail

I thought I was doing great. It was 6:00 on day three, and I hadn't eaten a single thing. Fasting seemed beautiful. But then my dad called. "Make sure you eat dinner tonight," he repeated for the third time. They were on to me. 


I cooked myself 62 calories of spinach pasta, ate it... a little bit of oatmeal... and I was bad. I didn't say no to the ghram cracker cake that they had especially cooked for me. Or the wine. In the end, I must've had at least 700 calories. Which was my entire allowance for the three days, two of which I'd spent fasting. 


At least I played hard-core basketball for a couple hours. That should even the score.


Still...What a waste.


Anyway, today is my 400 calorie allowance day. Wish me luck. Or don't.

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